feel free?hello there, what a gloomy evening i have here. dari pagi lagi. is it a bad sign? nay, its weather circle babe. last night i had a dream, for sure, a beautiful created dream by Him when His slave is having bad bad time. im going to hit my MGT153 paper this wednesday, and my eyes caught on Abraham Maslow's Theory. which stated in his hierachy that in my stage to succeed, i need motivations, in which of them is, love. i got my parents, family, friends. i have also my bae, which he didnt text me for a while. i told him not to text if he tak rindu aku. ya Allah, this rindu killing me so hard. i miss you MIH. so much. he once told me, dont hanging on bie too much. no, im not hanging on you too much. i just wanted to tell you, even a word like 'goodluck'. could drives my spirit like crazy. you are so that meant to me, sayang. even with all those kasaq(yes, proud to be kedahan :P) , doesnt mean that bila having a relationship you need to be all that sweet all the time. we started as friend, then some friend acts must have in our relationship. cewah, a good advisor to all but not to me. last night i saw he tweeted 'feel free!' . yunk, are you that feeling so free without me? :') what happened to you honey? why are this things crashed on me? do you know how much i miss you, our moments, like hell? is it true, that you feel free without me? if that so, im happy as it goes to you. my happiness is to see you happy, so am i. enough then to see a boy i loved since 5 years back happy. to see his smile, is my happiness. i love you so dearly, mih.
am i still your fav?long time no see hearts! its been a while when i AM busying with my final examination. what is this post related to? so i tell you, its nothing -,- jk. its about nearly a day that my bestie dont talk any kind of words to me. i did ask her well why is she keep acting like that? her answer is nothing, ill be ok soon. well, eventho i knew her like 4 months ago(lama la jugak kan) since we became roomate. she wont be like that if something goes wrong. i asked, i talked, i apologized. she still the same, stuck with her silentness. so aku punya tahap kepujukan tu da maximum. ok lah, let her be. im used to this. being shutting down by everyone. alone, again. i have a lot of story to tell you tau? why are you treating me like this? it hurts me a lot. -friend-
talk about a lover. what are you expecting when that word cross your mind? it must be something beautiful, aite? well, let me tell you, as a pro*cewah kemain . when you are having a relationship, it is not going to be like you are expected. there will be storm and rain along your sailing journey. almost 8 hours we keep distancing ourselves, i miss my bae so much, really miss you sayang. theres a fact where it stated that "lelaki cepat bosan dengan benda yg sama" . it is that true? if you does really love someone, you wont rasa that bosan bcs you always want to share, tell, her that how much you miss her, want her to be with you, always. but. why are you treating me like that? ok bae, maybe it is bcs you are under pressure. ok sayang, slow it down. sorry if i am pushing you around. i just miss the old of us where we are so that childish. apa pun buat, mesti balik balik tu masing masing cita. well now da takda, so it costs me time to accept the fact that we are getting older yet matured. really miss the mengada of you, and where you didnt call my name, instead of calling me 'yayang'. do you miss the same situation honey? wah, really talking to myself aaa. some of advantages to have your own blog maybe. haha. well, back off. i said, if space is what you need for to remain calm, then i'll give you. if distancing myself from you will be your curement, i'll be it. anything for you. but, let me ask you a question please, am i still your fav? it the answer is yes, promise me i'll be your fav till you want me to. i still love you the same, same as 5 years ago. back to reality, we are not talking to each other now. :(
un-describe-ableso i woke up with a piece of hope. i knew it will not be cherished. but when there's love, there will be no doubtness. yes i admit, doubtness sometimes needed in a realtionship. but it must have its own limit. i keep loving the same person from the back 5 years, even he aint that perfect, but guess what. we are all created to be imperfect. i guess dia punya weakness yg buat aku keep falling for him. i keep convincing my mind, my heart that aku boleh isi all that kind of flaws that he has. i dont saying that i have all the perfections. i do have some. no, a lot for sure. for even with all those flaws, he stand by my side, for correction, my dark side. i guess why i keep staying by his side bila dia so ego and keep shutting me down, because it is not a cheap yet foundable, the love that i have for him. so undescribeable. he is so amazing. i could just be the happiest person in the world by having him besides me. i love him for all sides he have. #mih
What a bloody holidays I ever hadIt is truly a fact and aint auta, that cuti spm ialah antara cuti terpanjang dalam human's history. Haha. Cepat laaaa result upu keluaq oiiiii. Tak sabaaa nak sambung study, jumpa kawan2 baru and mostly important tak sabaaa nak hilangkan kebosanan tahap el nino ni haha. Harap2 aku dapat kos yg elok and u yg elok. Aamin. P/s : its already 4.30 am and i still get my eyes wild and wide. Wadebaaa k bye